Tuesday, September 21, 2010

It all begins ...

They say that there is always a moment that sparks your weight loss journey, or makes you make the change that you haven't been able to do before. I'd like to say I have a "moment" but I'm not exactly sure what it is.

Recently I started realizing how much weight I have actually put on. No, I haven't seen the number (in fact I am scared to stop on the scale) but I have see the size of my pants, I have felt what it feels like when your clothes start getting to small, and I have seen myself in the mirror and thought ... wow this can't be me.

About two years ago I completely gave up. I was doing so well, lost a lot of weight and went from wearing a size 22 women's to a size 14 misses. I was continuing to make awesome strides and feeling amazing. Then, it happened. My world was rocked and my grandmother passed away. While I hadn't completely given up, I did notice an increase in chocolate consumption and more fast food. I tried to be at least somewhat healthy and tried to convince myself that it was OK to put on a few pounds after a tragic loss.

I stayed pretty close to my weight and then suddenly my world was rocked again. I got a phone call exactly five months (to the day) that my mother was found dead. This tore me to pieces and even a year and half later I am still trying to put those pieces together. My life was shattered and I just wanted to give up. My lunches and dinners were nothing but fast food or frozen dinners. I basically quit cooking. I tried to soothe my tears with Ben & Jerry's and anything chocolate or sugary.

This went on for a really long time. The pounds came on like the tears poured down my face. I felt completely alone and all I had were my friends chocolate and fried. I never thought I would ever get back to that place, but then again I never expected severe depression to attack.

Now it has been about 2 years and my life hasn't changed all that much. I am working on my depression and don't cry nearly as much as I did, I am surrounded by great friends, and I am finally finding my motivation to go back to the gym and eat healthy.

I started this blog to tell my story and share my struggles. It will also share awesome finds, great products, recipes and hopefully some awesome giveaways. Please join me for this journey and if you are on one yourself, lets encourage one another!

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